It just hit me. I did it again!

I'm in this Alternate Universe of George, on this detour originally, because I didn't trust my own gut enough to know I was on the right path for me. I had doubts about my decisions, followed someone else's truth, and was inadvertently hurtled through space and time into The Universe of George.

And now it strikes me like lightening that EVEN WHILE IN the Universe of George I have remained hesitant to trust my own instincts and do the things I know are right for me... the things to get me back on my path.

In October, in a moment of pure emotion, I was prepared to leave Poland, pack my bags and head to the airport for a warm beach in Africa or Mexico. But I was swayed by the superficial allure of attention. God. Yet more disappointing to me than being lured by the mirage of interest, was that I would even ask the opinion of someone else about such a huge decision.

What is wrong with me? When will I ever learn to trust that I KNOW WHAT'S RIGHT FOR ME?